school is starting soon. i realised that i haven't really rested this holiday, much less play. well, if you consider doing hall stuff as playing, then maybe im wrong.

the hall experience is very rewarding. even if i do not get rec back next year, i wouldn't have any regrets because i feel that i have taken a lot from hall. there were many interesting experiences, like caroling, inter-hall games, and all the gossip i have heard about. i feel that as compared to some other friends in other halls, i had gotten much more from hall, and i am satisfied.

that day, when i was worrying about whether i should do more stuff to be rec back in hall, i suddenly realised the most important thing is to be happy. and i have not been happy. maybe hall politics is not for me. all those 'show face' events, sometimes im just too lazy to do all that. also, i suddenly remembered that when i applied for hall, i just intended to stay one year to experience hall life. but humans are greedy, so when you have something, you just want more. gradually i want to stay another year, and i expect that if i do, next year i will want to stay another year again, telling myself each time this would be the last. i have to remind myself that hall is not everything, and despite all this, i should stay happy.

so i decided, being happy would be of utmost importance. whether i get to stay in hall next year doesn't matter. im not going to force myself to do things that i do not like. no matter what happens, life goes on and my gpa is still more important i guess.

i hope ml gets what she wants - to be rec back in hall. and i hope she stays happy. :)